The Seasons Never Stay The Same

Yesterday was yesterday, and today I'm feeling glum. I had a dream last night about my older son, dindin, that left me feeling a sense of loss so keen this morning that the effects of it physically hurt me. In my dream, I lost him. It wasn't the kind of losing someone that is in a big crowd or something, it's the kind of loss like in which I forgot that he was with me, turned around when I thought about it and realized it's been months since I seen him last and have no idea where he could be now. I woke up very upset and wondering what kind of mother I am. Regardless that it was a dream....it breaks my heart.

Oh, Wouldn't it be Lovely?

I feel bad that I haven't updated in a while. It's not like it's life important or anything, but it is nice to get my thoughts and doings out there. The faceless audience that hides in the shadows of other nonfollowers makes me think silly thoughts about the lot of you. Crazy peoples.