tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33574485286135895402024-02-07T17:03:40.108-08:00Thoughts From The HeartElle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-66297922838843836862012-09-14T09:54:00.001-07:002012-09-14T09:57:22.780-07:00JuJu's lovely legs - an introduction to my littlest one<br>
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Meet JuJu. He was born with Caudal Regression Syndrome. Basically, my little guy is missing some of his spine, his hips are out of socket, two club feet, thin legs with very little muscle, very little rotation in the joints from his knees down, one kidney that is shaped like a pancake, and an ostomy bag.<br>
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I can't really update what's been going on the past year (it's too much, alright?) but I can just begin again. That's the beauty of the internet!<br>
<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2012/09/in-dark-of-theday.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-57370278557421086802011-10-29T08:32:00.000-07:002012-09-14T09:57:10.142-07:00The Seasons Never Stay The SameYesterday was yesterday, and today I'm feeling glum. I had a dream last night about my older son, dindin, that left me feeling a sense of loss so keen this morning that the effects of it physically hurt me. In my dream, I lost him. It wasn't the kind of losing someone that is in a big crowd or something, it's the kind of loss like in which I forgot that he was with me, turned around when I thought about it and realized it's been months since I seen him last and have no idea where he could be now. I woke up very upset and wondering what kind of mother I am. Regardless that it was a dream....it breaks my heart.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/10/oh-wouldnt-it-be-lovely.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-56700758810217779542011-07-25T21:05:00.000-07:002011-07-25T21:05:15.274-07:00It's my turn for the crown please<span style="font-family: Arial;">I grieve and dare not show my discontent,<br>
I love and yet am forced to seem to hate,<br>
I do, yet dare not say I ever meant,<br>
I seem stark mute but inwardly do prate.</span><span style="font-family: Arial;">I am and not, I freeze and yet am burned,<br>
Since from myself another self I turned.</span><br>
<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/07/its-my-turn-for-crown-please.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-72959680353280809062011-07-19T18:15:00.000-07:002011-07-19T18:30:27.121-07:00Thoughts, Secrets, and a little BitternessAh, I have been working nonstop recently, and I love it. My legs are hating me at the moment though, because apparently I have been too inactive for too long, I get some swelling with water in them through my shift. Now it is about two weeks into working here, and it's finally stopped. I'm still careful though, I drink water throughout my entire shift and eat very little salt the same day I'm working.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/07/thoughts-secrets-and-little-bitterness.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-27362739818879642732011-07-10T08:29:00.000-07:002011-07-10T08:29:29.569-07:00Whit's fur ye'll no go by ye!Jamie, my dear Jamie. You've went and left me and now I'm holding onto only one in my small family to remember I am apart of them.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/07/whits-fur-yell-no-go-by-ye.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-31082204585245440662011-06-28T10:32:00.000-07:002011-06-28T10:32:11.762-07:00UpdatesI updated a few of my other pages, since I only just now realized I've been paying too much attention to one section of my life and not adding in anything about the others.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/06/way-you-move.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-65302661358880715922011-06-24T17:26:00.000-07:002011-06-24T17:26:16.847-07:00The day full of sadnessWho knew that today we would look back at tomorrow and laugh? Who knew that we could cry so much?<br>
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one thing. <br>
<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/06/if-you-forget-me-by-pablo-neruda.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-33663432964554990772011-06-20T13:14:00.000-07:002011-06-20T13:14:19.499-07:00Diamonds and ComplaintsThe more facets the diamond has, the more brilliant the shine. I can say...I have too many facets to my personality though I'm sure the overall effect can be more gaudy than beautiful.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/06/diamonds-and-complaints.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-62802427935800232892011-06-20T07:53:00.000-07:002011-06-20T07:56:14.041-07:00My dear friend Will...how you speak so clearlyYour love and pity doth th' impression fill<br />
Which vulgar scandal stamped upon my brow;<br />
For what care I who calls me well or ill,<br />
So you o'ergreen my bad, my good allow?<br />
You are my all the world, and I must strive<br />
To know my shames and praises from your tongue;<br />
None else to me, nor I to none alive,<br />
That my steeled sense or changes, right or wrong.<br />
In so profound abysm I throw all care<br />
Of others' voices that my adder's sense<br />
To critic and to flatterer stoppèd are.<br />
Mark how with my neglect I do dispense.<br />
You are so strongly in my purpose bred,<br />
That all the world besides, methinks, are dead. <br />
~William ShakespeareElle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-85475485576282115552011-06-19T18:32:00.000-07:002011-06-19T18:32:09.403-07:00Two wrongs do not make a right“Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.” ~Oscar Wilde<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/06/two-wrongs-do-not-make-right.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-42903191633133828402011-05-31T12:07:00.000-07:002011-05-31T12:07:30.163-07:00The Birthday MirrorI am turning 30 this week. As I move closer to the day I am remembering everything I thought I would be doing now, and what I am happy to not be doing instead.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/05/birthday-mirror.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-59431418957700436562011-05-02T21:09:00.000-07:002011-05-02T21:16:13.155-07:00My defensive positionI'm getting a little aggravated today with all the Obama hate. Poor guy looks like he's aged 50 years and despite everything he's done for us, people still always find a reason to complain. Sounds like the majority lately, biting the hand that feeds you.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/05/my-defensive-position.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-49034304638262979402011-04-30T18:01:00.000-07:002011-04-30T18:01:58.491-07:00The road with no endI get so tired and unhappy with myself for trying so hard sometimes. I am constantly on the lookout for advice, for words of encouragement, trying to follow my heart and do what I know is right....sometimes also doing what is not.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/04/road-with-no-end.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-12368515922306145572011-03-14T16:24:00.000-07:002011-03-14T16:26:36.675-07:00mini celebration for vacation!I'm having this idea in my head for a mini vacation soon. I can't seem to shake it loose and the more it creeps up and presents itself to me randomly, the more excited I am getting at the simple prospect of it.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/03/mini-celebration-for-vacation.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-8553345533323322222011-03-12T16:50:00.000-08:002011-03-12T16:50:12.790-08:00Two peas in a podJuju has decided that he likes my lover very much. He has decided that anything he does is considered not only hilarious but also exactly what he wants to repeat the remainder of the day. My little heart needs so badly someone to look up to, and in all honesty I am most happy it is him.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/03/two-peas-in-pod.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-69917419114907228182011-03-04T05:12:00.000-08:002011-03-04T05:12:40.063-08:00Yes I love/hate youWhy I feel it is appropriate to quote such a depressing yet moving poem, I've no idea. I only know that, whoever wrote this had truly accepted their fate as far as loving their other half. Me? I fight with mine on a daily basis :) just kidding....I try not to go against my own grain.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/03/yes-i-lovehate-you.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-64003369887772777992011-03-02T14:47:00.000-08:002011-03-02T14:47:58.619-08:00Perfection in your ReflectionI take him in with my keen eyes, he gazes down at me adoringly.."you smell wonderful...."<br>
"oh yeah? Like what?"<br>
"Like beauty"<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/03/perfection-in-your-reflection.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-12856714593671780362011-03-01T14:18:00.000-08:002011-03-01T14:18:25.074-08:00Sweet DreamsI had the strangest dream last night, and though when I woke up I knew it was a nightmare, it stayed with me for hours after. Normally when I wake up the first few thoughts in my mind are not those of a nightmare I had earlier in the morning, but it's attached itself to me today like a lonely leech.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/03/sweet-dreams.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-14924489216860406912011-02-23T10:02:00.000-08:002011-02-23T10:02:22.310-08:00A Party? Am I invited?!?I have to admit that being back the feeling in the air is quite different, and a number of things have changed. It's almost like he decided to finally wake up from the dream he was having and see clearly what was in front of him. I'm happy and sad, yesterday I found myself having difficulties to shake the memory of the despair I felt the day I left.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/02/party-am-i-invited.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-23868162096377628522011-02-18T11:05:00.000-08:002011-02-18T11:05:46.854-08:00The road that led me back to you..I have wanted to post an update for a few days now, but have not found the right words to convey the feelings in my heart. It has been one week since I left my home and was carelessly moved aside, today I write again from my home and I will fill you in the details of why that is.<br>
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<a href="http://lovelyellemarie.blogspot.com/2011/02/road-that-led-me-back-to-you.html#more">Read more »</a>Elle Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11024213740829358415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3357448528613589540.post-84881423227065352382011-02-13T14:49:00.001-08:002011-02-15T03:17:59.298-08:00The confusion of a waking nightmareI've been walking around in between some kind of dream in which there is no real escape. I can't hide the fact that my heart is so crushed I feel like I might just disappear at any moment. I smile through tears anyhow, though everyone around me feels the deepness of my despair, they only try to surround themselves around me in hopes to lessen it.<br>
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